Friday, June 06, 2008

I Wish I Was More Mentally Stable.

Hey, you know what? I'm a very non-confrontational person. VERY. Extremely.

But sometimes I get my feelings hurt, and when I do, it takes me a little time to feel okay again.

I usually don't say anything about it when I'm sad or nervous or hurt. I just try to get some time to myself so I can get straight. And let it go.

Except when anyone insists on confronting me before I can get straight. And if you confront me, I'm going to tell you what's up.

And chances are I'll cry while I'm doing it. But I'm gonna try like hell not to be mean about it. Cause I really don't want you to misunderstand.

Please believe me if I tell you I'm not mad. And don't argue with me and say you can tell I'm mad. Cause bull crap.

And I don't care if I don't usually go home this early. I'm tired, and yes, probably sensitive, but man, it would have been okay. I would have been okay.

But because I was confronted, I felt like I had to FIX everything, and I couldn't, so I tried harder, and when it didn't work, I flipped. And I'm sorry. But I really wish you hadn't accused me of being mad in the beginning. Cause that's when I got mad.

And I really am sorry.

3 comments:

Jennifer said...

I wish I could give you a hug! Sorry you had a bad encounter. I wouldn't call it mentally unstable though - I'd call it being a sensitive, caring WOMAN! Hope all is better now.
{{{HUGS}}}

Cricky (Who Is More Than Just A Girl) said...

Knowing your personal anger levels is probably one of the most mentally stable traits you could have.

I don't think you acted irrationally at all based on your description.

WendyDarling said...

((((((((((((hugs))))))))))))))

I know this is late, but I wanted to give it to you anyway. I hope things are better now.